Space Time – it’s alive
In superstring theory, the extra dimensions of spacetime are sometimes modeled as a 6-dimensional Calabi–Yau manifold, which led to the idea of mirror symmetry.

Scientists are exploring the outer and inner regions of the universe in ways that challenge our culturally Newtonian  belief that we live in a world of objects ruled by gravity, which is basically centrifugal force. While I am not a scientist, I appreciate the work scientists are doing to inform the public about the amazing insights their explorations yield.

Nova’s The Fabric of the Cosmos gives a fabulously illustrated version of the way we have changed our understanding of the universe mathematically.  Like Neil deGrasse Tyson’s Cosmos series, astrophysicists, mathematicians, neurobiologists and others are using new media tools to illustrate their seeming weekly breakthroughs.  We can see so far into space, both inner and outer that it’s changing how we perceive our world on the most fundamental levels.  For instance, discovering the increasing acceleration in the expansion of the universe led to a new awareness of dark energy, a force that repels in the way gravity attracts, challenging Einstein’s view of his “biggest blunder“.

The Alchemical Tree of Life

From quintessence to eternal recurrence, new theories invoke specters of 19th century spiritualism in which the aether becomes a fifth element, a medium of transmission for electromagnetic energy (light) and a new perspective on time and space (dark).  Alchemy is alive and well in the 21st Century.  Carl Jung ‘s study of alchemy provided a new interpretation of what is largely considered  balderdash.  Jung recognized the cycles of transformation as aspects of psychic integration, creating new interest in this ancient art.  In my post on the fractal nature of time I talked about the intergenerational transmission of trauma and other family traits.  After watching the Nova program on the fabric of space-time several things fell into place, resulting in the (albeit crude) model shown below.  Superstring theory reveals the vibratory interconnectedness of all there is.  That sensitivity is reflected in the responsiveness and receptivity of space-time. Is science bringing us closer to a merger of physical reality and consciousness?

Before I launch into an explanation, let’s talk about the felt experience of some of these ideas. Intuition, if not reviled, has certainly been the poor handmaiden of science, champion of the age of enlightenment.  In the 20th Century, famous examples of scientific breakthroughs linked to dreams include Friedrich Kekulé’s discovery of benzene, Otto Loewi’s chemical transmission of nerve impulses, and Srinivasa Ramanujan’ series of mathematical formulas. Many inventions and works of literature and art are beholden to information brought to light in dreams. Dreams help bridge the gap between our unconscious knowledge and our waking consciousness.

The model below suggests that space-time is the medium of consciousness as well as the physical world.SpaceTimeModelI apologize for the limitations of my model.  Try to imagine the cones as vortices, spiraling outward/inward in 6 directions (so too the arrows). Our conscious awareness is generally focused on ourselves in the center and in the areas of family and collective awareness immediately surrounding us. We tend to experience time as forward marching and linear.   If I knew how to create a 3D animated model, you would see the structure as a globular, pulsing cloud connecting to others in expanding and contracting spirals of energy.

The further out we go from the central self, the more we explore the subconscious aspects of our awareness, both personal and collective.  When the spirals overlap, we might experience foresight, synchronicity, new life themes and emergent evolutionary patterns.  Or we might meet people who facilitate our growth. Space-time is the medium in which intensely lived experiences reside. In this model, time moves in all directions and is subject to the way we define our experience more than any kind of imposed linearity. With the advent of holographic theories of the universe, it could be argued that our lives are the end of life projections of choices we have already made that are capable of change and renewal. Or perhaps the dream projects the dreamer, with no beginning and no end, backwards to the future with Aristotle. Parva_Naturalia_1210


The Shell and the Kernel – an Easter reverie

Celebrating my birthday on Easter at the ocean gave me a chance to check in with my Self and open to rejuvenation, resurrection. This Easter reverie reminded me of a time a few years ago in which my understanding of Self and ego centered around symbols of the egg. May Easter unfold for you throughout the years to come.

The changes in perception I’ve been experiencing are connected to the ongoing Egg series. I just read a bit from the Sanford book, Mystical Christianity that somehow I missed in Edward Edinger’s The Bible and the Psyche:

“As Jungian analyst Edward Edinger pointed out, the Center consents to being broken and divided symbolically in the breaking of the host, so that his reality may be disseminated within and among the worshipers. All of this is part of the Christian mysterion which is further described in verses 17 and 18, that reality we call Christ is available to us in very small portions, of which we partake inasmuch as we are able, and it is like a sacrifice made by God for our sakes that this can happen. And in fact in all psychological and spiritual advances in consciousness it works this way; the truth is assimilated only bit by bit.”

This relates directly to the breaking up of the egg that is an ongoing symbolic progression. The ego as the egg, changing as the Center grows within, then cracking open and being disbursed throughout as a universal awareness of the Center in all. Yesterday as I was riding the bus I saw the shell of the ego/egg changing and dissolving, becoming luminous like a star, with some discrete boundaries but soft and light, not fragile and brittle. Our essential nature as it shines forth from the Center is light. This is the message that just keeps unfolding. Incorporating the shadow has continued growing the awareness of the center as it is disbursed throughout humanity as it was shown in the last part of the dream I had last December. As I held on to the shadow and walked into the light outside I saw kaleidoscopic scenes of humanity from all parts of the earth. This is something I’ve been working on for so many years, finding it in myself to love all people. I swear if there ever was a beautiful mandala it is the earth.

One day as I sat in the back yard I experienced myself fragmenting, emotionally, like shards of glass exploding in slivers, piercing my awareness like knives. This searing, painful recognition of brokenness, of imperfection gave way to a healing fountain from the Center, flowing through the separation, bringing healing in its wake. I felt like the butterfly I saw drinking in the water from the sprinkler. It would just stretch its wings out and drink in the living water, the Holy Sprit drenching the soul with love. This is the love I must feel for myself. Looking outside doesn’t work. This love from deep inside, from my heart of hearts is for me too. This is something I haven’t learned from my family although my daughter experiences this love of self without the overtones of its shabby pretender, Narcissus. Our culture is infested with this case of mistaken identity, the confusion of the inflated ego with the wholeness of Self. Now is the time for reconciliation and for love and forgiveness, starting with myself.

The shell image came to me months before I read this book. The ego is handled in the same way I saw it, as the brittle shell of time surrounding the eternally evolving self within.

Excerpts from The Shell and the Kernel by Nicholas Abraham and Maria Torok with my commentary:

Introjection represents both the aim and the specific course of psychic life from birth to death. It is a constant process of acquisition and assimilation, the active expansion of our potential to accommodate our own emerging desires and feelings as well as the events and influences of the external world. It is the psychic counterpart of the child’s biological development and continues through the various stages of maturation, including adulthood. As a result, the repressions and psycho-sexual anxieties and experiences of childhood continue on and do not dominate the unfolding consciousness of the individual. They view sexuality as an expression of the energy of the psychic-somatic, not the cause and cite any number of traumas to the process of introjection as inhibitory toward integration.

Introjection is the process of psychic nourishment, growth and assimilation, encompassing our capacity to create through work, play, fantasy, thought, imagination and language. It is the continual process of self-fashioning through the fructification of change, whether the modification is biological and internal (i.e. sexual maturation) or external and cultural (child detaching from parents). At the same time, it represents our ability to survive shock, trauma or loss; it is the psychic process that allows human beings to live harmoniously in spite of instability, devastation, war and upheaval.

Three stages of introjection:

1) Something new or foreign (good or bad) occurs in or to me
2) I turn myself into that which this new “thing” has done to me. I familiarize myself with it through play, fantasy, projections, etc. I appropriate it for myself.
3) I become aware of what has occurred and of my own gradual encounter with it. As a result, I am now able to give the whole process a place within my emotional existence; I also understand why and how the scope of “myself” has been modified and expanded. The purpose of psychoanalysis is to intensify the process of introjection in order to effect healing of life traumas. Some of the obstacles to introjection are the phantom (undisclosed family secret handed down through generations), illness or mourning, an untoward sexual outburst at the time of loss, a secret or alien identity which “entombs” an unspeakable consummated desire.

The shell and the kernel in dynamic relation:
How the ego is represented (p80):

The ego struggles on two fronts: toward the outside it moderates appeals and assaults – turned inside it channels excessive and incongruous impulses. Freud sees this as a protective layer, an ectoderm, a cerebral cortex, a shell. The role of the shell is also to conceal and yet reflect the nature of that which it protects. They are very clear about this; the kernel is “unbendingly resistant to encyclopedic systemization.” The authors admitted the possibility of a conceptual organization of psychoanalysis but its inherent unity cannot be found in the bounds of traditional thinking, its apprehension requires a new dimension to be found.

Stage 1

The question: “If Freud’s theories form a protective shell around his intuition, simultaneously concealing and revealing it, what of the actual kernel? For it is the kernel which, invisible but active, confers its meaning upon the whole construction. This kernel, the active principal of psychoanalytic theory, will not show through unless all the apparent contradictions have found their explanation in the unity I ascribe hypothetically to Freud’s intuition. (Abraham and Torok)“

Semantics play a large part in conveying the contradictions inherent in posing opposites for reconciliation. For instance, Pleasure and Discharge refer not to the conscious experience but to that which may be experienced as pain/pleasure simultaneously. In this way they approach the new dimension of unity in polarity. A & T accuse philosophy, which is reflexive (reflecting upon thought itself) of being naïve, ignoring the mystery of the “opaque indeterminacy of the distance that separates the reflecting subjects from themselves, a distance endangering even patent notions founded on an illusory proximity to self, or the space that separates the “I” from the “me”. In this space, in this non-presence of the self to itself – the very condition of reflexivity, psychoanalysis stakes it domain – on the ground of non-thought. The challenge: how to include the very thing which is a precondition of the discourse and which fundamentally escapes it. If nonpresence, the kernel and ultimate basis of all discourse is made to speak, can it – must it- make itself heard in and through presence to self? Such is the paradox inherent in psychoanalysis”.

AntiSemantics: they go to great lengths to establish the “designification” of words like “pleasure”, Unconscious, Id, Self, Conscious, in an effort to return again to the mystery of meaning arising from non-being or un-thought. This is valuable in setting up the relationship between the ego and the self, as layers of interpenetrating psychic envelopes.
The messenger and sender are used to describe the process of establishing meaning as it stems from that which the two have in common, but remains yet in mystery. The poles of somatic (body but not just body) and psychic (mind but also designified) are the opposites, with the representative or messenger more clearly visible as the mediating entity. Poetry uses symbols to convey a meaning, which is alluded to but never fully articulated or revealed. “The philistine claims to translate and paraphrase the literary symbol and thereby abolishes it irretrievably.” The mystery remains but the desire to possess it, to describe it is just as powerful. We can view this process as Adam’s challenge as God asks him to name what he sees. Naming includes both the desire to possess something or limit it while simultaneously admitting the futility of absolute definition. Something always remains unspoken.

Abraham combines the two ideas of the unconscious and the symptom as more than a way of treating neurosis. The unconscious, with its ability to overwhelm the conscious mind and its historical self-reference is shown as the incoherent basis of self-identity. Symptoms allow us to track down the disruptions in conscious development and track them to the source of origin in the unconscious, establishing maps, as it were into our mystery of being.

Anasemia is introduced as a way to define the paradoxical status of thinking and interpretation. Abraham maintains that psychoanalysis is mainly an interpretive science, but anasemia allows for the interpretation of that which is not available to direct interpretation, the apparent with not apparent, observation and non-observation, speech and silence, and so on.

Symbol and Anasemia enable us to look at fantasy as a symptom of a desire that seeks solution through expression. He pairs it with the symbol of the messenger, which can also be seen as instinct or drive. Fantasy creates the message that links the envelopes of the somatic (organic source of drive or message) to the psychic or conscious/body awareness. The somatic is alluded to by the messages conveyed to the psychic outer envelope. In this way the kernel is expressed to the ego or shell. Sexual fantasies are represented as contact between the phallic nature of the unconscious Kernel with the envelope or Ego. The embedding and interrelationship of the kernel in successive envelopes or layers produces on the surface, the ego or epidermal expression of the Self (kernel). Again, that which the envelope (ego) conceals it simultaneously reveals as the kernel is implicit in every envelope and interpenetrating all, including the unconscious receptacle of itself. It arises in the unconscious but stems from a deeper organic source: God, the manifest Center as Christ.